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hey, this is a blog about a girl named michelle. if you know her, then that's great i guess. if not, then this blog might be a little confusing. if you want to get to know me, just talk to me. i don't bite. i think.

Despite the contentment and the smiles (recently), there's always that one thing(s) that nags me at the back of my head constantly. Due to the cliché matter of it, I'd rather not disclose the situation, but what's the sense of blogging if it makes no sense? Really, who gives a fuck what others think. The truth is the truth and if someone happens to be bothered by it, well, sorry.

I'm tired of trying to make an effort to get this friendship to work and I know you don't give two shits. You don't really care about what happened before, but you distance yourself away from me because it makes you a bit uneasy. Seriously though, I'm not asking for your feelings to be returned. I'm not asking for you to be my boyfriend. I'm not asking for anything more then a friendship. I'm asking for you to be a friend. Is that so hard? Just because I like you, doesn't mean that all I want is you to like me back. Sure, it would be nice, but the only thing I care about between us is to just repair whatever fucked it up and be friends again. I never even told you, but I know you knew, and I know it just made it weird... later on.

I hate having to try and keep a front to show that it doesn't bother me to be around you.. because it does. I hate having mutual friends, especially when they're with you all the time. It bothers me because it just hurts that we drifted from being so close to practically nothing in a blink of an eye. I don't even know why. Honestly, you confuse me. You're someone that's hard to understand when you're upset or when something goes wrong. It's easy to understand who you are when you're happy, but if it's the opposite, it's just incomprehensible.

It's weird when you think about it - why do I like him? I ask myself that question all the time. Maybe it's just because I do. It's hard to explain it when you like someone. But I can tell you what I like about him - though, it's not relevant to the blog.

Disregarding the past, I'm not an emotional wreck over this, just a little irritated. I don't know why the little things bother me so much.. because it's only the little things from him that bothers me, usually never anyone else. Maybe it's because I care too much, and the fact that I care too makes me like this.

I just want to be back to normal so I'm not constantly being punched at, at the back of my head. It's really starting to hurt, you know - not that it would matter.

This is just a stupid, small matter. I wonder why I wasted a blog on this.

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Despite the contentment and the smiles (recently), there's always that one thing(s) that nags me at the back of my head constantly. Due to the cliché matter of it, I'd rather not disclose the situation, but what's the sense of blogging if it makes no sense? Really, who gives a fuck what others think. The truth is the truth and if someone happens to be bothered by it, well, sorry.

I'm tired of trying to make an effort to get this friendship to work and I know you don't give two shits. You don't really care about what happened before, but you distance yourself away from me because it makes you a bit uneasy. Seriously though, I'm not asking for your feelings to be returned. I'm not asking for you to be my boyfriend. I'm not asking for anything more then a friendship. I'm asking for you to be a friend. Is that so hard? Just because I like you, doesn't mean that all I want is you to like me back. Sure, it would be nice, but the only thing I care about between us is to just repair whatever fucked it up and be friends again. I never even told you, but I know you knew, and I know it just made it weird... later on.

I hate having to try and keep a front to show that it doesn't bother me to be around you.. because it does. I hate having mutual friends, especially when they're with you all the time. It bothers me because it just hurts that we drifted from being so close to practically nothing in a blink of an eye. I don't even know why. Honestly, you confuse me. You're someone that's hard to understand when you're upset or when something goes wrong. It's easy to understand who you are when you're happy, but if it's the opposite, it's just incomprehensible.

It's weird when you think about it - why do I like him? I ask myself that question all the time. Maybe it's just because I do. It's hard to explain it when you like someone. But I can tell you what I like about him - though, it's not relevant to the blog.

Disregarding the past, I'm not an emotional wreck over this, just a little irritated. I don't know why the little things bother me so much.. because it's only the little things from him that bothers me, usually never anyone else. Maybe it's because I care too much, and the fact that I care too makes me like this.

I just want to be back to normal so I'm not constantly being punched at, at the back of my head. It's really starting to hurt, you know - not that it would matter.

This is just a stupid, small matter. I wonder why I wasted a blog on this.

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